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Thursday, 22 April 2010

Getting a car has been great, but..

Toni is a fucking bitch. Tomorrow I have shit to do that's actually important.. (which wouldn't matter even if they weren't important because it's my fucking car and I'll do whatever I want!) I have to get my health card in the morning, which is required to keep the job that she bitched at me about getting, and in the afternoon I have to buy brakes and light bulbs for the car that she is constantly asking me to take her places in so I can drive it safely.
They're going on a 4 day or so vacation and they want me to take them grocery shopping and to get their nails done. So I tell them, between 11 and 2:30 is the only time I have available to take them since they're leaving and it's the only day off I have off this week. She says "I'm so sick and tired of people telling me what I HAVE to do.." It's like, what the fuck? Bitch, be fucking ready when I tell you to be cause I have shit to do and you can either shut the fuck up and take the 3 and a half hour window I've provided you with or put on some tennis shoes and fucking walk.
What am I supposed to say? Okay Aunt Toni, don't you worry.. I'll open up the whole day for you tomorrow so that you can take your sweet ass time, and while we're on the way to the store for YOUR shopping, we can possibly crash into something/someone on account of the fact that I couldn't stop in time because you got annoyed at the fact that I asked you to be ready at a certain time, and the only thing that matters to you is that you didn't have to wait or be inconvenienced with the amount of time that I gave you..
Fuck that shit.
And then, she comes in to my room, acts like she didn't just piss me the fuck off and asks me to help her with her ipod.
I'll tell her how to fix it; shoving it up her ass may solve a few problems. At least for me.

Friday, 12 March 2010

It sucks when most of your friends are douchebags.

I feel like writing things on facebook and myspace about how I actually feel.. But then the people who I want to bitch out, without actually saying names, will figure it out, get sad and blah blah blah. So I'm going to do that here, where none of them will be able to see cause I'm shady and mean. Enjoy. :
Fuck them. I get so irritated with people when I feel like I don't matter. Am I being selfish? Sure, people have lives and shit, and I've done my fair share of blowing off plans but I don't care about that right now. My feelings don't see the merit in considering rational thought at the moment.
I get mad at myself for caring. I really don't want to care.. But they're fucking flakes.. One minute they ignore me, or forget shit and I get annoyed, sad, irritated, angry and then finally nonchalant about the whole thing.. right on my way to not caring .And then.. Wtf? They come back and do something that shows that they're a good friend. What the fuck is up with this part-time bullshit?
And then the whole "We need to hang out, we really really do!" Fuck you too. We're not going to hang out because neither of us cares enough to do anything but send the occasional myspace comment saying how much we "care". I want to be done with all of it..
But alas, we all need friends, don't we? We need those people to leave comments on our pages because logging on and having nothing to check is what we all dread while we're typing in our email addresses. We need those acquaintances that text you in the middle of the day at random to make you feel thought about.. And we need those false promises to have something to maybe look forward to.
I'm already getting angrier about caring enough to write this shit down.

Wednesday, 10 February 2010

So here's how it is..

Moved back. Need a job. I love Jeffrey! Birthday was great :) Things are a little weird. People suck and I still keep talking to them. I get so easily irritated. Going to California this Saturday. At least gonna take a walk on the beach ot something. Gotta get my sweater from the dance studio and all the rest of my stuff. I really won't be in the mood for a talk from Jaimi. She can stfu. I don't give a damn what she thinks about my decisions and I don't need her back-handed comments or snide remarks.
Anyways, going to school this Summer. Got lucky with some money for that. Thank God!
Feels good not to have to worry.. Too much. Won't have to take the bus too much, hopefully. Get a job=get a car. Need to get on that.

Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Ah my back hurts!

I've been doing grunt work since 8ish this morning. California Closets filing system is no joke.. And those boxes are heavy! I'm gonna get a hernia :( I wrote a poem the other day.. Not a shocker there, but it was unlike anything I've ever written.. I woke up on Monday not feeling.. anything. It was a strange and unwelcome feeling. I started the day and I knew that it wasn't going to be good unless something happened or I did something about it, but I didn't care about anything, so the last thing I was gonna do was try to make myself feel better.. So later that night I wrote and it's.. good. But sad and it just kind of spells out everything that I've been feeling lately. Anyways.. I think I'd like to get something published one day.
McDonald's Lattes are so good and I love Brisk lemon iced tea. I find the best food in the weirdest places. They have the best sandwiches in this like half grocery store, half deli place.. Mm. I found out that theres like some animal epidemic going on, where the meat in a lot of places is tainted. Ew. Makes a person want to become a vegetarian really quick.. But I think I can wait until lent for that one ;)

Saturday, 26 December 2009

Christmas in CA

It was nice :) Of course I missed my family and friends.. and I'm very broke right now, but all is well. Hopefully I'll get to see all of those people within a few weeks. Cross your fingers!
Went to the post office today. My butt hurt from the long bike ride, but it was nice. Everytime I have to walk or ride my bike long distances I just say to myself, it's good for my butt, it's good for my butt. Haha.
I'm getting bigger. This is a very good thing.
I really need a hair cut.
I miss Shantel :(
Bahh.